Time is unstoppable. Someday all will be gone.
Every second is over as soon as you think about it. Over, over, over.
But what's about all the things which already happened to you?
Who you have been years ago? You'll never be the same again.
We all change like the leaves of the trees and the stars in the nightskies.
Both is me only with 6 years in between.
6 years of improving my sight of the world and the livings on it.
Becoming from an 9-year with best grades in school, no worries about life, self-confident, happy and succesfull young boy to a depressed, creative, lazy , alternative guy who sees almost no sense in life anymore.
Stranger things have happend, but that's the game of life.
Like is said. You will never be the same again but the important thing is that you're proud on what you are.
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Well I'm not but you should! Because when you think about that you are the only one of 7 Billion humans around the world. You're the only one who looks like you, you're the only one who have your memories. Your life is the only which is like it is.
Life is unexpectable. If someone told me when I was 9 that in 6 years you will think completely different about everything you see and feel. I have no idea what I've done then.
My childhood was awesome but my teenage years until now weren't. Oh wait... were they?
I think at one day I will look back and I will call these time the 'good old times', because they were good.
They made you who you are.
And everyone who is reading this right now.
You're made of what you experienced and what your opinion made you.
You're special.
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6 years of improving my sight of the world and the livings on it.
Becoming from an 9-year with best grades in school, no worries about life, self-confident, happy and succesfull young boy to a depressed, creative, lazy , alternative guy who sees almost no sense in life anymore.
Stranger things have happend, but that's the game of life.
Like is said. You will never be the same again but the important thing is that you're proud on what you are.
...
Well I'm not but you should! Because when you think about that you are the only one of 7 Billion humans around the world. You're the only one who looks like you, you're the only one who have your memories. Your life is the only which is like it is.
Life is unexpectable. If someone told me when I was 9 that in 6 years you will think completely different about everything you see and feel. I have no idea what I've done then.
My childhood was awesome but my teenage years until now weren't. Oh wait... were they?
I think at one day I will look back and I will call these time the 'good old times', because they were good.
They made you who you are.
And everyone who is reading this right now.
You're made of what you experienced and what your opinion made you.
You're special.
Music.
It's everywhere around you. In your car,bus,taxi,plane,ship or whatever.
But what is music? Music is what you make out of it.
For some it's just something you hear. Only a rhythm.
But not for me.
Music is something you feel, something which expresses feelings and tells stories, but isn't it actually the actual sense of music?
Years ago music wasn't important for me it was just something which was around (well I used to hear techno and such stuff. I hate this now. :D ). Well that was the time when I was in this macho-gangster-clique where this was meant to be cool.
Times have changed and pain has come and so also my opinion of music changed. I discoverd more depper songs because they have fit more to my feelings.
Since then so since 3 years I only hear such music because music is my way to get through hard times and to express my feelings.
Music is now everything to me. I can't imagine to live without it.
And to be honest: I hate the modern music.
Pop, hip-hop, techno, electro, whatever.
I don't want to hear it because it doesn't mean anything to me.
And for me it's the most important about music is that I can relate myself to what I hear. Sounds strange I know.
I love good lyrics and I actually wrote some by myself when I'm bored.
And seriously: The lyrics of pop songs are just...well you know...not that touching.
Because somehow 98% of the songs in the charts are about dancing, some hot girl you met at the club or wherever or some wannabe-depression.
Some think that's good, I don't. It's just not enough for me.
For dancing it's enough but dancing is not my thing because I just suck at dancing :D
If you asked yourself now to what music I listen if I don't listen to 'mainstream'-music, I hear alternative.
And for me it's the best thing I've ever heard.
Bands like Foo Fighters, My Chemical Romance, 30 Seconds to Mars, Red Hot Chili Peppers or Linkin Park are my favourites (like someone noticed from the picture above...)
None would believe me if I say that this music saved my life (especially MCR) but somehow that's just how it is.
Seems unreal doensn't it?
But I don't know. This music gaves me the feeling that I'm not alone with my problems.
And to prove this: The first sentence in the first song of the first album from My Chemical Romance:
You're not in this alone.
Proved.
Most of the people have no idea what the lyrics of alternative music actually means and may thin it's emo or something. Well...get your heart broken, get an outsider and then listen to it again. You will understand.
And If you don't then it's just not your music genre.
I don't want to say that everything else is bad or something it's just not my thing.
Music is more than dancing and rhythm and such stuff to me.
Music is one of the important things in my life and will always be.
It's everywhere around you. In your car,bus,taxi,plane,ship or whatever.
But what is music? Music is what you make out of it.
For some it's just something you hear. Only a rhythm.
But not for me.
Music is something you feel, something which expresses feelings and tells stories, but isn't it actually the actual sense of music?
Years ago music wasn't important for me it was just something which was around (well I used to hear techno and such stuff. I hate this now. :D ). Well that was the time when I was in this macho-gangster-clique where this was meant to be cool.
Times have changed and pain has come and so also my opinion of music changed. I discoverd more depper songs because they have fit more to my feelings.
Since then so since 3 years I only hear such music because music is my way to get through hard times and to express my feelings.
Music is now everything to me. I can't imagine to live without it.
And to be honest: I hate the modern music.
Pop, hip-hop, techno, electro, whatever.
I don't want to hear it because it doesn't mean anything to me.
And for me it's the most important about music is that I can relate myself to what I hear. Sounds strange I know.
I love good lyrics and I actually wrote some by myself when I'm bored.
And seriously: The lyrics of pop songs are just...well you know...not that touching.
Because somehow 98% of the songs in the charts are about dancing, some hot girl you met at the club or wherever or some wannabe-depression.
Some think that's good, I don't. It's just not enough for me.
For dancing it's enough but dancing is not my thing because I just suck at dancing :D
If you asked yourself now to what music I listen if I don't listen to 'mainstream'-music, I hear alternative.
And for me it's the best thing I've ever heard.
Bands like Foo Fighters, My Chemical Romance, 30 Seconds to Mars, Red Hot Chili Peppers or Linkin Park are my favourites (like someone noticed from the picture above...)
None would believe me if I say that this music saved my life (especially MCR) but somehow that's just how it is.
Seems unreal doensn't it?
But I don't know. This music gaves me the feeling that I'm not alone with my problems.
And to prove this: The first sentence in the first song of the first album from My Chemical Romance:
You're not in this alone.
Proved.
Most of the people have no idea what the lyrics of alternative music actually means and may thin it's emo or something. Well...get your heart broken, get an outsider and then listen to it again. You will understand.
And If you don't then it's just not your music genre.
I don't want to say that everything else is bad or something it's just not my thing.
Music is more than dancing and rhythm and such stuff to me.
Music is one of the important things in my life and will always be.
You only hear the music when your heart begins to break.
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Not knowing how your life will continue leads you often to think about every possibility you can chose.
You keep on thinking about what could happen and if it will end well.
Then you have taeken your choice, making your plan and then something, someone destroys your whole plan.
What now? You can't stop time and think about it forever. It gets worser and worser.
Surrender? Wouldn't it be easy? Letting everything go. Don't care about anything anymore. Ending it right here and right now. It's not.
Trust me:
Surrendering is not an option and it's never going to be the right way out. Never.
Someone is always there for you and those people are the reasons why it's no option.
Because honestly: They need you more than you think.
To someone you always mean something and therefore you should never surrender.
Bleed but never die.
Sink but never drown.
Fall but never stay down,
Run but never flee.
Cry but never surrender.
Just live.
You can.
I believe in you and I'm not alone.
To get luck you have to survive your bad times. This can take long.
As longer it takes as luckier you will be in the end.
For every luck someone or something has to suffer.
Paradise. Some day you will be there.
Before you have to find your way. Lucky people are flying there.
But we walk on fragments from mirrors of our loves and hopes to get there.
Some day we are there. Marked with scars.
Some day you will look back in time and you will be happy that you didn't surrender.
Keep running through hell. Heaven can wait.
Every morning you wake up and sometimes you just think: What just happened?
You dreamed.
But what and why? It's a fact by the way that it's no one ever found out why we wake up automatically even without light or sound.
Remember your last dream. It's hard isn't it? We do not remember many dreams because we only experience 1 of 10 dreams and then we mostly don't remember them later.
Dreams are mostly abstract and seem unreal but even though how strange they might be.
Every dream has a link to your personal feelings and experiences. Seems awkward and it actually is.
Your brain tries to manage your thoughts and feelings.
Dreams speak in pictures and you often have no idea what is meant by that.
Try to think about it. You may get more knowledge of who you actually feel. Maybe. Don't know if this is maybe to philosophic or whatever but it helped me.
Some dreams may seem totally real. Then you actually know what is happening around you and you think it's real. This happens mostly before a decission or a very improtant event in your life. There your brain tries to think about every way you could go and what will be happening and what would be the best.
Dreams guide you through your life even though you don't know it.
Normaly you wake up if something bad happens in your dreams (nightmares) but by people who get mobbed or the ones who have a bad time, heartbroken people or whatever it can happen that they don't wake up.
Because they're used to bad things in their real life. (By the way those people often dream that they die means that they have to stand much pain).
Dreams are meant to help and organise your thoughts and feelings but there is still not everything clear.
Wishes,hopes,fears,love,hate,pain.happiness.
It's all in there.
Every night.
My friend pe came up with the idea to make a Theme-O-Rama which is created by the users and now we're asking around who would be interested in that.
It will probably like this: once a week one of the users decide a theme which everyone in the U-Tor will write about in his/her blog. We wat to make this to bring something new in the blogs of piczo.
So please vote here:
It will probably like this: once a week one of the users decide a theme which everyone in the U-Tor will write about in his/her blog. We wat to make this to bring something new in the blogs of piczo.
So please vote here:
If you voted yes please send a personal message to me or pe.
Thank you :)
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Thank you :)
